Saturday, July 28, 2007

The Reflections.

I am crazy. I really am. I am almost broke and homeless, but here I am attempting to establish some LGT blogs for the community. Do I qualify as an activist? I do not know. I have been reading a lot of lately and find myself lacking in the English department. The way they pen their words are like approximately 30 years ahead of our league here. And so is our progress. That is it, is it not? We LGTs in Asia are about 30 years behind our dearest caucassion counterparts in terms of human rights, laws, politics and mindsets.

Besides this personal blog, I opened up another two: (Reflections - still in progress)

-Cyberspace LGT community for information exchange between LGTs in the east and the west.
-Sharing LGT news and articles throughout the world.
-This is a blog for everyone.

a) Getting to know the LGT issues that are happening all around the world.
b) To know more of various LGT conditions in different countries. (Reflections Asia- still in progress)

- Watchdog on ex-gay groups in Asia, such as Exodus Asia Pacific and its affiliates.
- LGT Information and Education portal.
- This would be a LGT affirming Christian ministry, but not limited to Christianity stuff.

a) Reconciling sexuality, with faith, with science, with reality and with society.
b) Education / information sharing to the Asians about homosexuality and transsexualism.

So why am I doing this?

I would have God to thank for first. He inspired me, even in all my troubles now, to do something about the state of LGTs in Asia and in the world today. With Hong Kong and Singapore showing great progress, there are still a lot of countries, like here (Malaysia) and (Thailand) that are still struggling when it comes to the understanding of what homosexuality and transsexualism really is.

In addition, there are a bunch of mushrooming ex-gay ministries like Real Love Ministry and Pursuing Liberty Under Christ (Malaysia), Liberty League and Choices Ministry (Singapore), and I realise there is now a new danger when these groups misinform people about LGTs in their preachings and seminars, even to the extent of mixing everything up. And their brand of science is mind boggling indeed! Even Exodus International do not present such misleading blend of (censored)! One who has a trained mind and had undergone an ex-gay session in Malaysia would know. And these miseducation breeds ignorance, and in turn becomes intolerance, then hatred.

That is why, something needs to be done. But I cannot do it alone. I need support in the form of authors for the two above, and perhaps we can start up a community ministry together later. But first things first, if there are anyone of you out there who are lesbian, gay, bisexual, intersexed transsexual, ex-ex-transsexual or ex-ex-homosexual, even straight but affirming of us; I hope to hear from you. I now need those who are interested in writing, sharing about LGT issues and life, to be authors and activists for the two blogs above. If you share the common vision, to come of age, and having a better tomorrow for us and the younger generation of diversed God's creation, please e-mail me at

I am new in activism. So, before I start developing these two blogsites next week, if you have any ideas on how to work up these blogs up to satisfaction and make it into a powerful tool to improve the lives of LGTs around, or knows how make these sites a haven for those looking for solutions and information, or something needs to be done about my English before I stutter, let me know. Thank you very much. Will be sharing more next week after I faced more of my adventures. Ditto.


I found this interesting article about Sodom, and which to share with you all. It is amazing how the Holy Bible can be manipulated by the irresponsible to preach intolerance. Here is the real deal about Sodom... :

The story of Sodom is often seen as a story of destruction and punishment, both at the corporate and individual levels. Sodom was destroyed as was Lot's wife. The story of Sodom is also a story of salvation. It is a story about how an imperfect man, Lot, and how he was saved through faith.

We know that Sodom was a very sinful city. We know that it was destroyed because of its sinfulness. However, we are not told explicitly in Genesis what the sin of Sodom actually was. The story does tell us implicitly how the Sodomites sinned, and serves as a warning that we must not sin in the same way. What is more, the sin of Sodom is something that each of us can commit, and we can probably commit it without even noticing.

Sodom in Genesis

The first few references to Sodom are fairly neutral. We know that it was on the Canaanite border (Genesis 10:19). It was in a fertile, prosperous region (Genesis 13:10). The people of Sodom were "wicked and sinners" before God (Genesis 13:13). The King of Sodom was Bera (Genesis 14:2), and when Bera went to war with Chedorlaomer, Lot was captured. Abraham rescued Lot, and in doing so he rescued Bera and his men. He would not accept any reward for this (Genesis 14).

Genesis chapters 18 and 19 contain the most detail about Sodom. At the start of Genesis 18, three angels visit Abraham and Sarah. Abraham welcomes them into his tent. Although he does not immediately recognise them as angels, he nonetheless treats them as honoured guests, feeding and making them comfortable.

After promising Abraham and Sarah a child the angels set off towards Sodom, and here we get the first indication that Sodom's days are numbered.

And the LORD said, Because the cry of Sodom and Gomorrah is great, and because their sin is very grievous; I will go down now, and see whether they have done altogether according to the cry of it, which is come unto me; and if not, I will know. (Genesis 18: 19, 20)

The wickedness of Sodom was already well established. The angels had not yet set foot in the city, and its sin was already considered to be very grievous. What we are seeing here is God's formal process of judgement. He did not have to send the angels to Sodom to find out how evil the city was; he already knew. God was prepared to send Jonah to Nineveh, giving the Ninevehites the chance to repent. The Sodomites were also sent messengers from God, and they also had the same chance to repent. The people of Nineveh responded, but the people of Sodom, as we will see in Genesis 19, did not.

Abraham was a man of God, and he knew what Sodom was like. He knew what the angels would find. He asked that Sodom would be spared if as few as ten righteous people were found there. God agreed: Sodom would be spared if there were even ten righteous people there.

The welcome the angels received in Sodom could hardly contrast more with the welcome they received at Abraham's tent. They were treated as honoured guests by all of Abraham's household. At Sodom, the only one who welcomed them was Lot himself. Lot's wife, his daughters, and his sons in law are conspicuous by their absence. Lot's family sinned by inaction. The people of Sodom then tried to commit a terrible sin through action.

But before they lay down, the men of the city, even the men of Sodom, compassed the house round, both old and young, all the people from every quarter: And they called unto Lot, and said unto him, Where are the men which came in to thee this night? bring them out unto us, that we may know them. (Genesis 19:4, 5)

The entire population of the city - male and female1 - surrounded Lot's house. That mob had one thing in its collective mind. They wanted to rape the visitors, exactly as the men of Gilbeah would want to rape the Levite in Judges.

Abraham had done everything he could to make the visitors welcome, even though he had never met them before. The people of Sodom wanted to take the visitors out of the comfort of Lot's care and they wanted to physically abuse them in the worst possible way.

Sometimes this incident is portrayed as sinful because of the gross inhospitality. Other times the attempted gang rape is seen as the core sin. Both points of view contain some truth. The Sodomites were inhospitable, but that inhospitality was not just a casual neglect of the visitors. It was an active attempt to harm them. The Sodomites were attempting gang rape, but they were not going to rape just anybody. They were going after two men who were on their own. Two men travelling without armed companions. Two men who, as far as they could see, had no means of defence.

There can be no doubt. The sin the men of Sodom were attempting to commit was very grievous.

Grievous though the sin was, this specific incident was not the reason for the destruction of Sodom. The sinful nature of the city was already well established when the angels arrived. Abraham knew what the angels would find, and he knew it would lead to the destruction of the city, and that is why he pleaded that the city should be spared if there were even ten righteous people. The people of Sodom were already being described as wicked at the time of Genesis 13.

What was the sin of Sodom? What was it about Sodom that made Lot's wife look back? To answer this question we need to look at some of the later references to Sodom.

Sodom in Isaiah and Jeremiah

We get an indication of the nature of Sodom in Isaiah and Jeremiah.

Hear the word of the LORD, ye rulers of Sodom; give ear unto the law of our God, ye people of Gomorrah. To what purpose is the multitude of your sacrifices unto me? saith the LORD: I am full of the burnt offerings of rams, and the fat of fed beasts; and I delight not in the blood of bullocks, or of lambs, or of he goats. (Isaiah 1:10,11)

These words were directed at the rulers and people of Israel. Their ostentatious sacrifice was being offered in the wrong way and for the wrong reasons. The people this message was directed at had distorted religion. They were worshipping God in a way he didn't want them to. The people are also compared to Sodom and Gomorrah.

They would not have been compared to Sodom if they had had nothing in common with Sodom. The issue under discussion is inappropriate worship. Isaiah 1 at the very least suggests that Sodom was also worshipping God in a distorted, unwanted, manner.

False worship is also associated with Sodom and Gomorrah in Jeremiah,

And I have seen folly in the prophets of Samaria; they prophesied in Baal, and caused my people Israel to err. I have seen also in the prophets of Jerusalem an horrible thing: they commit adultery, and walk in lies: they strengthen also the hands of evildoers, that none doth return from his wickedness; they are all of them unto me as Sodom, and the inhabitants thereof as Gomorrah. (Jeremiah 23:13, 14)

The prophets of Jerusalem are said to commit adultery, walk in lies, and strengthen the hand of evildoers. This support of evildoers also features in the most important Old Testament reference to Sodom, outside of Genesis.

Sodom in Ezekiel

Ezekiel tells us exactly what the sin of Sodom was.

Behold, this was the iniquity of thy sister Sodom, pride, fulness of bread, and abundance of idleness was in her and in her daughters, neither did she strengthen the hand of the poor and needy. And they were haughty, and committed abomination before me: therefore I took them away as I saw good. (Ezekiel 16:49, 50)

Pride, fulness of bread, abundance of idleness, neglect of the poor and needy, haughty, and committed abomination.

This is why the sin of Sodom is a warning to us all. The sin of Sodom something unspeakable that only some people are prone to commit. The sin of Sodom was pride, materialism, haughtiness, and neglect of the poor and needy.

Have you ever been proud? Have you been materialistic? Have you been haughty? If you can answer yes to any of those questions - and I think all of us can - then you have committed the same iniquity as Sodom. Have you neglected the poor and the needy? Have you supported evildoers? Then you have committed the sin of Sodom.

Consider the two angels from the point of view of the Sodomites. Here were two travellers with no means of defence. They had nowhere to sleep. The people of Sodom neglected these poor and needy travellers. Later on, the whole city works together in the attempted gang rape. There is no record of anybody apart from Lot trying to stop it. Some of the people, those at the back of the crowd, would merely have been failing to strengthen the hand of the poor and needy through their inaction. Those towards the front were actively adding their support, strengthening the hand of those at the front, those evil people who lead the lynch mob.

The Sodomites committed abomination. The Hebrew word translated abomination here is tow'ebah. In the Old Testament this word is normally used in connection with inappropriate worship. Idol worship, for example, is considered tow'ebah in Deuteronomy 7:26 and 26. Tow'ebah is used of conscious inappropriate worship. Someone who didn't know any better would not be committing tow'ebah by sacrificing to an idol. Someone who knew the law of Moses certainly would.

At the very least, the use of tow'ebah in Ezekiel 16:50 suggests that the people of Sodom did have some knowledge of God that the rejected. Ezekiel 16 is directed towards Jerusalem. If the people of Sodom had heard the word of God as the people of Jerusalem had then it is even more appropriate that Sodom and Jerusalem are considered sisters. They not only shared a knowledge of God, but they shared a rejection of God. The people of Sodom were not ignorant innocents punished by a brutal God.

Sodom in the Gospels

Provide neither gold, nor silver, nor brass in your purses, Nor scrip for your journey, neither two coats, neither shoes, nor yet staves: for the workman is worthy of his meat. And into whatsoever city or town ye shall enter, enquire who in it is worthy; and there abide till ye go thence. And when ye come into an house, salute it. And if the house be worthy, let your peace come upon it: but if it be not worthy, let your peace return to you. And whosoever shall not receive you, nor hear your words, when ye depart out of that house or city, shake off the dust of your feet. Verily I say unto you, It shall be more tolerable for the land of Sodom and Gomorrha in the day of judgment, than for that city. (Matthew 10:9-15)

Of the five references to Sodom in the Gospels, three reinforce the connection between Sodom and inhospitality - Matthew 10:15, Mark 6:11 and Luke 10:12. Hospitality - kindness to others - is a key part of Christ's teaching, and we would expect that a city destroyed for inhospitality, neglect of the poor and needy, would feature as an example.

One of the references - Matthew 11:23,24 - simply uses Sodom as an example of an iniquitous city. The final reference uses Sodom as a warning for the followers of Christ living in the last days:

And as it was in the days of Noe, so shall it be also in the days of the Son of man. They did eat, they drank, they married wives, they were given in marriage, until the day that Noah entered into the ark, and the flood came, and destroyed them all. Likewise also as it was in the days of Lot; they did eat, they drank, they bought, they sold, they planted, they builded; But the same day that Lot went out of Sodom it rained fire and brimstone from heaven, and destroyed them all. Even thus shall it be in the day when the Son of man is revealed. (Luke 17:26-30)

The days of Lot and the days of Noah had one important thing in common: the people were worldly and materialistic, and that is what people will be like before the return of Christ. Pride, fullness of bread, abundance of idleness, neglect of the poor and needy.

Sodom in the Rest of the New Testament

The parallels between the days of Lot, the days of Noah and the last days are used as exhortation in 2nd Peter chapter 2, verses 5 to 9:

And [God] spared not the old world, but saved Noah the eighth person, a preacher of righteousness, bringing in the flood upon the world of the ungodly; And turning the cities of Sodom and Gomorrha into ashes condemned them with an overthrow, making them an ensample unto those that after should live ungodly; And delivered just Lot, vexed with the filthy conversation of the wicked: (For that righteous man dwelling among them, in seeing and hearing, vexed his righteous soul from day to day with their unlawful deeds;) The Lord knoweth how to deliver the godly out of temptations, and to reserve the unjust unto the day of judgment to be punished:

Just as Lot was vexed with the filthy conversation - the godless incontinent lifestyles - of those around him, the disciples of Christ will be and are vexed by the godless incontinent people in the 21st Century. To be vexed by these things is not the same as fearing that we have been abandoned by God. The Lord knoweth how to deliver the godly, and as he delivered Lot, so he will also deliver us.

The most puzzling reference to Sodom in the New Testament - probably the most puzzling of all Biblical references to Sodom - is found in Jude:

I will therefore put you in remembrance, though ye once knew this, how that the Lord, having saved the people out of the land of Egypt, afterward destroyed them that believed not. And the angels which kept not their first estate, but left their own habitation, he hath reserved in everlasting chains under darkness unto the judgment of the great day. Even as Sodom and Gomorrha, and the cities about them in like manner, giving themselves over to fornication, and going after strange flesh, are set forth for an example, suffering the vengeance of eternal fire. (Jude 5 -7)

There are three groups here: "the people out of the land of Egypt", "the angels which kept not their first estate", and "Sodom and Gomorrha". The first two groups rebelled against God and were punished, so Jude supports my conclusion that Sodom and Gomorrah were not godless cities destroyed for their godlessness, but were rebellious cities destroyed for their rebellion, just as "the people out of the land of Egypt", "the angels which kept not their first estate" were punished for their rebellion.

The puzzling part of this passage is "going after strange flesh". It is possible that this is an obscure reference to the attempted rape of the angels. This would be another parallel between the days of Lot and the days of Noah (Genesis 6:1-4). Indeed, the "angels which kept not their first estate" may also be the "sons of God" described in Genesis 62. This explanation of "going after strange flesh" feels awkward, but no more awkward than the various Christadelphian explanations of the preceding verse.

Remember Lot's Wife!

The fate of Lot's wife is probably the most chilling aspect of the story of Sodom.

And it came to pass, when they had brought them forth abroad, that he said, Escape for thy life; look not behind thee, neither stay thou in all the plain; escape to the mountain, lest thou be consumed… The sun was risen upon the earth when Lot entered into Zoar. Then the LORD rained upon Sodom and upon Gomorrah brimstone and fire from the LORD out of heaven; And he overthrew those cities, and all the plain, and all the inhabitants of the cities, and that which grew upon the ground. But his wife looked back from behind him, and she became a pillar of salt. (Gen 19:17-26)

Lots wife looked back, and for that transgression she was killed. When I was growing up I used to have the image of Lot and his family fleeing from Sodom with terrible sounds behind them, and Lot's wife was struck down for glancing over her shoulder, perhaps showing concern for the people she had once lived with. That is not what happened. It was not a casual glance that cost her her life. It was not a concerned glance as they were fleeing. Lots wife looked back after they had escaped. They had reached safety, saved by the hand of God. She looked back with longing, she looked back to the city where they ate, they drank, they bought, they sold, they planted, and they built, but they did not concern themselves with the things of God. She had been saved from Sodom, but she did not really want to be. She snatched damnation from the jaws of salvation.

This is why Christ tells us to remember Lot's wife. Looking over your shoulder is not intrinsically sinful. Looking back with desire to a sinful, Godless lifestyle, is what we must never do.

Look at the way Christ describes it:

And as it was in the days of Noe, so shall it be also in the days of the Son of man. They did eat, they drank, they married wives, they were given in marriage, until the day that Noah entered into the ark, and the flood came, and destroyed them all. Likewise also as it was in the days of Lot; they did eat, they drank, they bought, they sold, they planted, they builded; But the same day that Lot went out of Sodom it rained fire and brimstone from heaven, and destroyed them all. Even thus shall it be in the day when the Son of man is revealed. In that day, he which shall be upon the housetop, and his stuff in the house, let him not come down to take it away: and he that is in the field, let him likewise not return back. Remember Lot's wife. Whosoever shall seek to save his life shall lose it; and whosoever shall lose his life shall preserve it. (Luke 17:26-33)

He that was on the housetop was not to go back for his possessions. He that was in the field was to leave without his things. And the third example? Remember Lot's wife.

Do not go back for your material things, for your lifestyle, your stuff in the house. Remember Lot's wife. She was worldly, and that was her downfall.

I think just about every Christadelphian has loved ones who do not follow Christ. It is difficult. I am sure that each of us has, in the darkness of the night, thought that they might look back as Lot's wife did. And I am sure that each of us is frightened by that. Yes, we must remember Lots wife, and pray that we never look back as she did.

But we must also remember Lot. Even when receiving a direct instruction from his angelic visitors, Lot hesitated and disobeyed, and he hesitated and disobeyed because of his family.

And Lot went out, and spake unto his sons in law, which married his daughters, and said, Up, get you out of this place; for the LORD will destroy this city. But he seemed as one that mocked unto his sons in law. And when the morning arose, then the angels hastened Lot, saying, Arise, take thy wife, and thy two daughters, which are here; lest thou be consumed in the iniquity of the city. And while he lingered, the men laid hold upon his hand, and upon the hand of his wife, and upon the hand of his two daughters; the LORD being merciful unto him: and they brought him forth, and set him without the city. (Gen 19:14-16)

It would not be human, it would not be Christian, to have a casual disregard for your family, whoever they may be. When we hear the wonderful message that Christ has returned there will be a part of each of us that wants to linger, part of us that wants to stay behind to save those we love. That is normal because that is what love is.

And while he lingered, the men laid hold upon his hand, and upon the hand of his wife, and upon the hand of his two daughters; the LORD being merciful unto him: and they brought him forth, and set him without the city.

The LORD was merciful unto Lot, and the angels lead him by the hand to safety. The LORD is merciful to us, and it is His good pleasure to give us the Kingdom. The angels took Lot by the hand and lead him to safety. He was not condemned by his human compassion, and we will not be condemned by ours either.


1 "The men of the city" uses the word "enowsh" which is gender neutral. Contrast with Genesis 17:23 where it specifies that the male enowsh are to be circumcised: "every male among the men [enowsh] of Abraham's house". This would have been unnecessarily precise if enowsh meant only male people.

2 A full discussion of this is beyond the scope of this article. See Wrested Scriptures (Abel, R), p 179 and The Christadelphians (Tennant, H) p 158 for more detailed discussion of the "angels which kept not their first estate"

Published in The Testimony, with some minor edits, in January 2004

Friday, July 27, 2007

Transsexuals Are A Culture?

This article was brought to my attention a few months ago by my friend Mr. Raymond Tai from the PT Foundation. Many thanks to him.

Transsexuals in Malaysia: No discrimination but not encouraged either
13 December 2006

Malaysia — Transsexuals in the country are not being discriminated but the 'culture' is not encouraged, either.

This is the sentiment of two non-governmental organisations (NGOs) following a foreign report that transsexuals in Malaysia are gaining acceptance within the local community.

In the report by Associated Press yesterday, Jessie Chung, the Malaysian transsexual who made national headlines when she married an accountant in a public wedding last year, claimed that anti-discrimination campaigns by local NGOs have helped changed the public's perception on transsexuals.

National Council of Women's Organisation deputy president Faridah Khalid, said though NGOs do not encourage transsexuals, they don't discriminate them either.

"Our anti-discrimination campaigns don't focus on transsexuals but communities which are prone to sexually-transmitted diseases like HIV and AIDS.

This includes gays, lesbians, sex-workers and drug addicts.

"We do not want these groups to go underground because that would lead to a lot of other social problems.

By identifying who they are, we are able to approach them and address their issues,she told The Malay Mail.

Faridah said when the Government can't address a particular issue, especially something as sensitive as this, that's when NGOs come in.

Muslim Consumers Association of Malaysia project director Noor Nirwandy Mat Noordin felt that the statement by Chung may not be properly measured.

"I wouldn't say they are gaining acceptance in society because there are many others who feel otherwise, like the elderly who value tradition and culture.

"The culture may pose a threat to the younger generation as they are more exposed to modern technology,he said.

Nirwandy said transsexuals, gays and lesbians may not be aware of it but their conduct in public may cause discomfort or unease among the local community.

"Though many do not accept it, we still tolerate it because it is their right.

He said the Government should conduct proper research on such cultures to ensure that future generations are not affected.

In the report, Chung, who was born a male and had a sex-change surgery in 2003, had claimed that Malaysian transsexuals are "luckier than those in some other places.

She had said: "I know this because when I walk down the streets, strangers who recognise me often approach me with encouraging words.

Our society is becoming more open-minded.

Chung, a Christian in her 30s, married accountant Joshua Beh in front of 800 guests in a ceremony conducted by independent church pastors on Nov 12, 2005.

However, the Government ruled the marriage invalid as it considered it a same-sex union.

Chung's identification documents state that she is a man, since local transsexuals cannot legally update their gender status even after changing sex

Anon (2006). Transsexuals in Malaysia: No discrimination but not encouraged either.
Malay Mail Online

Yuki's thoughts: I am absolutely astonished by this display of third world mentality.

The Stand.

I have spent one and a half years in Petaling Jaya, but now in the same position I was when I first arrived here to this central region of Malaysia. Being back to square one is tough. Looking for a new place to stay is my priority, but is a major problem for me. But I guess I have to fight on. Relying on God is one thing, but the fear of survival does consume me. With burdens, heavy debts and nothing to start with, I am presented with the biggest challenge God and life had ever given me. At least, seeing my other T sisters beside me, suffering too, I realise I am not alone.

Friends? Some have come and supported me all they can. I am forever grateful for them. Others they choose to help me half-heartedly. At least they kept me alive for awhile. Most of them fair weather friends are now gone. I guess I could not blame such friends totally, who would want to mix around with a baggage mess like me. What hurts about them is some putting the sole blame on me as an excuse to ex-communicate me from their lives. But I forgive them.

Work? I fallen so deep here. I came here with high hopes, and started with some sales jobs, but soon was reduced to a GRO in a karaoke bar. I recently quit it when things get nasty with men and realised it is becoming a stumbling block to a real job for me. In the past year, I have also been involved in escort work entertaining men. But I am praying everyday now for a way out of this hole, and if God wills it, out of this country. I am like telling myself, "Go get a life!"

Relationships? I am bisexual, but I primarily like men. I had some one night stands here and there, but nothing serious. There was this Malaysian man based in Thailand, but he is married and when I wish to be obligated to him, he suddenly disappears. Then there was this T-gal lover, but he is too engrossed with his ex and another girl. Yup, this two really strikes me with memories. I am however, attracted to an Australian guy that looks a bit like Paul McCartney. But I do not want tango without a partner, so I will see how this goes and how serious he is.

Future? Too far to look. So I am going to take it one step at a time. I am no longer walking alone though. I have God walking with me. It is tough balancing the demands of society, faith and sexuality. But I will concentrate on that later. Right now, I need to survive. I believe God will provide for me soon, for I landed in serious trouble and may not survive the week. Hope it is not too greedy for me to ask God to, please, send me a Prince Charming to rescue me. Who knows? Miracles happen when you believe. Somehow, I still survived the past year plus, did I not?

Tough Times Don't Last... Tough People Do....